A Letter to Heaven

“If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together... there is something you must always remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we're apart... I'll always be with you.” -A.A. Milne, Winnie the Pooh

Dear Courtney,

It has been 10 months since your passing. It feels like it has been an eternity but at the same time it feels just like yesterday that we were together. This has undoubtedly been the worst year trying to fathom the thought about how I am going to be facing significant things - boys, marriage, kids, graduation, real life jobs - without your tough love support.

I wish more than anything we could relive the past. The summer we spent swimming every day, the dances we took so many silly pictures at, my weekends in Columbus, our random roadtrip to Geneva, and our "bar crawl" to Boardman where we ended up at that Salsa dancing restaurant. The funniest thing is that Brooke and Jamie and I tried to go back to Los Gallos last weekend and we almost walked in on someone's 40th birthday party!

I can sometimes hear your laugh in my mind when I think back on the memories. I can still remember you making fun of my laugh "a sneeze, cough without breathing" - the truth is I remember you saying that but I can't remember the last time I really laughed like that was. I miss you so much. Everyone misses you so much. I love you and would give anything to just have you back. However, I do want you to know that I think I finally am trying to find some peace in my life. I'm not necessarily moving on but I'm trying to find things to do that make me happy. I also am living a healthier lifestyle as well. I'm working, exercising, and eating healthy again - I think you'd be proud. Anyways, I love you pretty girl and think about you daily.

Love, Abbygirl