Development and Personality Project
       by Grayson Rutherford, p2

Not Boring (but slightly boring) Personal Information-

Name: Grayson Leigh Rutherford   Age: 17    DOB: September 25th, 1997   Hometown: Dallas, TX    Sex: Female   College Aspiration: Vanderbilt

Definitely Not Boring (way less that slightly) Personal Information-   

Activities: Owner of an Etsy store, BeatUpBlues

Interests: Space Exploration, Photography, Collecting Vinyls           Groups: HP Varsity Softball, the Bagpipe, HP Young Dems, Model UN       Favorite Music: Alt. Indie, 1st Wave, Hip-hop and R&b  Your Color: Blue Favorite Movies: Fight Club, Good Will Hunting, the Birdcage           Favorite TV Shows: Arrested Development, It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia, Through the Wormhole with Morgan Freeman                 Favorite Books: To Kill a Mockingbird, Slaughter House Five, A Thousand Splendid Suns  Favorite Time Period: Classical Greece and 1960s America

Piaget Timeline:
A Look at My Celestial Fascination

Erik Erikson Timeline

Personality Tests:
Color Code and Big 5

Johari Window

The Johari Window is a useful tool for analyzing oneself and finding words to summarize your outward identity. In my experience, the most fascinating aspect of the Johari Window was comparing the words someone sent me with the dynamic of the relationship I have with them. For example, I valued the results from those closest to me the most because they were the only people sent me negative words in addition to positive ones, which hints at their feedback being more honest. I trust their opinion the most because of how much time I spend with them. However, I also came to the conclusion that the results from moderate friends that haven't been around me as much hold a lot of insight as well. Their adjectives represent how others see me from the outside- more than a first impression but not as detailed of an analysis as close friends'. Lastly, it was intriguing to witness how emotional experiences shared with someone effect their word choices. Friends who I have known for a few years and have helped during tough times usually gave more emotional words like dependable, accepting, and trustworthy.

In Conclusion

Overall, I think it's almost impossible to say exactly who I am. Granted, I have certain aspects of my being nailed down: likes, dislikes, dominant traits, hopes and fears. I am aware of what motivates me, what hinders my performance, what insecurities restrain me, and exactly what someone needs to say to fire me up in order to prove them wrong. I also know how I hope my life turns out, how I hope I maintain the values that are precious to my conscious, and how I hope I remain resolute in my aspirations. But the real issue is that I can't make up my mind on deciding if these are the things that define me as a person.

Looking back, "reflective" was definitely the most fitting adjective I chose for myself. Throughout my life, I have always been saturated with thoughts larger than my body and vaster than my own mind. I enjoy wondering, exploring, and looking out and away at concepts incomprehensible to my psyche. As Alexander Dumas said, “nothing makes time pass or shortens the way like a thought that absorbs in itself all the faculties of the one who is thinking. External existence is then like a sleep of which this thought is the dream. Under its influence, time has no more measure, space has no more distance.”

Perhaps I do have everything figured out. Maybe a part of me tucked away behind contemplation and doubt knows just what I, Grayson, am comprised of. But in the context of the human endeavor, I don't believe that part of my exists. Self-actualization is not meant to be a yellow, brick road leading to one pretty and neat place of clarity. I look forward to never knowing just who I am; quite honestly, that would ruin the fun.

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