Here I am
Born: September 3, 1998
16 years old
Blue/Green eyes, Blonde hair
I live in Dubuque, I like to go fishing, hunting, hiking, camping, sports, being creative, working on arts and crafts.
Caring, Creative, Helpful, Thoughtful
My relationship with my mom
Music, The river, My nephew and niece
Numb, Worthless, Happy
Alone, Rock bottom, Flying on a plane by myself
Completed Forest Ridge residential treatment, Went to state for Hempstead soccer
Graduate high school, Travel the world
Mom-Stacey Dad- Mark Older Brother-Tyler Brother-Alex Sister In-Law-Amanda
Niece and nephew- Ashlynn, Owen Alex's Girlfriend-Paige
My grandparents are from Texas, my mom grew up there, my dad was born and raised in Dubuque, IA
A girl that is very stubborn but at the same time can be the greatest friend on the planet. She loves pizza and is absolutely gorgeous. She is loved by everybody and is fucking hilarious! - Pearl, From England/Welsh
My mom picked out my name because that was her favorite name for a girl. I think i suit Megan because i kinda made my own personality with it.
Who I Am
My name is Megan and I see myself as a bright young girl who has been through more than anyone could imagine, I am a very strong young lady who likes to take risks to figure her way of life. I value my relationships with other or just even people I care about because I never know when I will see them again in life so I make the most out of what I have and the amount of time I have with that person. I react better than I used to, after going to Forest Ridge I realized if I react certain ways, nothing good will come out of it so I think before I act. I have several different strengths, the one that is the strongest is caring. No matter what I am always doing things for other people to make them happy so i can feel good myself. I'm thoughtful, flexible. A weakness I have is being sensitive but, It's gotten better as my self esteem grew. Why am I sensitive? Because of what I have been through in my life. My motto is that "I refuse to sink".
My favorite things
School is not something I necessarily like but I know I need it and education is important, having teachers like I do know keeps me motivated to come to school and get my work done. I hate change. I like to work on crafty things when I have some free time, I enjoy working with kids in any way, I love sports. My favorite thing to watch is Night watch, Criminal Minds, Flash point. I love to watch movies, any kind besides old school or any cartoon. I listen to Rap/Hip-Hop, Country. I have only read books for classes but other than that i read the Hunger Games. My favorite foods are chicken, deer steak/meat, Mac n cheese. I like dogs. I love jewelry.
I've changed a lot but I would like to continue to change and grow, learn new things. Over the next 10 years I would like to learn everything I can while advancing through college. Grow and make new people through out college and when I start training and doing internships for the medical field. At age 25 I want to be able to look at myself and say I did it, I became the person I am today. Working as a EMT wherever I decide to live, no kids, maybe a significant other depending on where I'm at and if things are settled for me. Own a apartment or rent a small house, driving. Traveling the world either through work or just on my own. While traveling, go to different residential treatment facilities and giving some sort of speech of my experience and everything i have been through and how i have overcame it. Visiting my family when I have free time.
Steps to change
Be open to what others have to say, continue to be honest. Think before speaking, be assertive. Keep my boundaries high and protect myself. Do not set myself up for failure, recognize my triggers and deal with them instead of blowing them off. As I get older do all the things I listed and make a plan of action if I feel like I am getting stuck or I'm falling down. Pick myself back up and continue to push forward. Continuing to improve my self esteem and my confidence, love myself for who I am. I'm not going to worry about others and what they think of me, do my own thing and live my own life.
My life is a crazy roller coaster, trying to get through each day was rough. I struggled with depression, anxiety, ODD and feeling suicidal for many years of my teenage life. Went through several different treatments and realized once I hit rock bottom that, that was it, I need to make a change. I told myself that I cannot keep living like this, I was tired of feeling depressed all the time and just hating myself, and life itself. My education is very important to me. In 2015 I graduated high school and started college the following fall. I am studying to be a EMT in the medical field, eventually a paramedic. I graduated college in 2020. After college I plan to move somewhere out of Iowa. That will be apart of my new life. Meet someone, when I'm comfortable think about going further. I want to find someone that will accept me for who I am and let them know what I went through in my past and how that made me who I am today. I plan to have kids, I'm not sure how many yet but I will give them everything they need and be there for them no matter what. Be a amazing supportive mom that I didn't have.
I think identity is something we all need to know for our own good. Having and knowing your own identity allows someone to understand who they are and what they can become. I believe that your identity is very important for you to know and understand. Your own personal ability to know yourself and set boundaries for yourself, and know your limits. Personally for me I had to hit rock bottom before I could build my own foundation and understand my own identity.
My identity affects what I do, who I interact with and in what ways I do that. Identity affects me in life by understanding who someone is and why they do the things they do. It helps me understand myself and what I need and when I need it. If I don't understand my own identity then I tend to do crazy things and act on impulse.
I feel like other need to be aware of other identities because of the boundaries we set for our self. Why we need certain things, how we interact with others. To help someone in need but they don't know how to ask for help. Support others in any way possible, be there for them and show that this world can be something. Everyone is valuable in their own way even if others don't want to believe so or are against it.