Bake Sale For Babies Testimonial:
Surrendering the "Why?" and Seeking the "How..."
In the classroom of the United Methodist Church we assembled together for the National Day of Prayer. Three mothers and a room full of kiddo's. In this room decorated with pictures of Jesus and his sheep, little drawings and hesitant letters written by pure sweet hands we sought to intercede on behalf of this nation. We asked for mercy and reflected on the world in which we live. Before bracing the topic of abortion we read some heartbreaking statistics to put us in a more acclimated state to promote a heightened, sincere prayer.It is hard to know what our children absorb at times. It can be hard to have what the Jewish people refer to as Kavanah, meaning intent- heartfelt motivation, in prayer when children are up down all around rustling bustling and interrupting.
The more we pray together and in the presence of our children the more disciplined they become.
After an hour of prayer any normal child will become antsy so I was unsure what was being gleaned. I was unsure until the next morning when I was in the school room of our home with my daughter and she began her studies. She kept stopping and sighing and didn't seem to be getting anywhere. I finally asked her what was wrong. She asked me what abortion meant. I tried to explain it to her. I told her there are some women who decide for any number of reasons (which we discussed in detail) feel it is in their power and right to choose to do away with the baby inside of them. My daughter Kayalynn is seven years old, you could say she's a typical seven year old in the sense that she loves to play and be silly. She loves to be outdoors and with friends. Other than those things I would say she is very far from typical. She has a devotion and longing after the Lord that surprises me at times and a connection to the Lord which humbles and delights me. As a family we study the word of God as a unit, Genesis to Revelation. We believe every word is an inspired and divine gift intended to be the manual to fulfill the commandments of Jesus, whom I will refer to in this testimonial as his own mother did and as we do in my home by his Hebrew name Yeshua.
Matthew 22; 36 “Teacher, which is the great commandment in the Law?” 37 And He said to him, “‘You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind.’ 38 This is the great and foremost commandment. 39 The second is like it, ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’ 40 On these two commandments depends the whole Law and the Prophets.” [The word depend in verse 40 is Strongs G2910- kremannumi ( krem-an'-noo-mee) meaning to hang. We believe this hanger holds up and supports every eternal word that God has given us and it is our honor to seek out the matter.]
The purpose of that explanation is to establish that Kayalynn has a biblical foundation and her heart was very troubled by the existence of abortion, so too she knows it is very troubling to our King. We continued on with our day but she kept stopping and asking "Why? Why would someone do that? How could that happen?" We talked together, prayed together, we cried together. The "Why?" just didn't stop. My explanations were just not enough to give her peace.
In this case where "why" can't really be morally or reasonably defined one comes to a place where one has no choice but to ask themselves additional questions.
"Where?" Where do we go from here? The people at Care Net have done this very thing, they have realized a bad situation and figured out where to go next. They strive to minister to women and show them all would be missing out on by opting to abort their babies. They give these women other options by providing counseling, baby items at minuscule costs, childcare and more. Care Net offers women the chance to choose life and at the same time they tell them about the route to eternal life in becoming a child of God by belief and trust in Yeshua the Messiah, Jesus Christ. Care Net was the first thing to come to my mind and as I told Kayalynn about Care Net she became very excited and hopeful. The next question that came for us was "How?" How do we help?
Luke 18; 15 And they were bringing even their babies to Him so that He would touch them, but when the disciples saw it, they began rebuking them. 16 But Jesus called for them, saying, “Permit the children to come to Me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of God belongs to such as these. 17 Truly I say to you, whoever does not receive the kingdom of God like a child will not enter it.”
I am a stay at home mother of three and God has blessed me beyond measure by allowing me first of all to be a mother, to be entrusted with the huge honor and responsibility of caring for and teaching my children about him. It is my job to give them all the tools I can possibly give them for survival in a darkening world but even more so it is my job to teach them how to live and be light in the darkness.
My purpose is to show my children how to reflect the light of Yeshua that abides inside of them.
Matthew 5; 14 “You are the light of the world. A city set on a hill cannot be hidden; 15 nor does anyone light a lamp and put it under a basket, but on the lampstand, and it gives light to all who are in the house. 16 Let your light shine before men in such a way that they may see your good works, and glorify your Father who is in heaven.
Years ago I began what the Lord inspired my heart to pursue as a sort of ministry by compiling blog entries which consist of scripture He led me to and all the connections and illuminations I have learned from wonderful teachers in all our studies, foremost being the Holy Spirit. At one point He connected the dots of using the skills He gifted me with in the kitchen to promote the blog, which is only a humble avenue for sharing the good news from Genesis to Revelation: We have the freely given love of a savior and a route for salvation and eternal life in Yeshua the Messiah.
So there is a lot of baking that goes on around this house, Baruch HaShem (Praise God) ! Kayalynn answered the question of "how can we help?" by suggesting a bake sale for Care Net. Both of us were very comforted by the idea and we committed to each other and to the Lord that we would begin to work on it right away.
II Corinthians 1; 20 For as many as are the promises of God, in Him they are yes; therefore also through Him is our Amen to the glory of God through us. 21 Now He who establishes us with you in Christ and anointed us is God, 22 who also sealed us and gave us the Spirit in our hearts as a pledge.
The process has been an amazing teaching experience. Kayalynn wrote a wonderful un-coached letter straight from her heart that she sent to family members and friends to enlist their help with donations of ingredients or money to cover the costs of putting everything together. She learned how to write and edit a letter and how to post an envelope. She saw the fruits of her efforts when she got responses and this really fueled the excitement. Over these weeks we have talked a lot about the plans for what we would make and where we would advertise. We made a flyer and walked it into more than 8 churches in town. I made a facebook page, craigslist ad, contacted the Herald and Spark fm. We told everyone we knew about it and gave flyers to Kayalynn's abba (daddy) who handed them out to customers at his place of business.We have a garden that God has blessed so very much and have a little stand we set up near our house to sell our produce ( but more importantly use as an opportunity to praise God and speak about him.) We have had a good amount of people stop by and we were sure to tell each one about the bake sale. We did our best.
Psalm 3;1 O Lord, how my adversaries have increased! Many are rising up against me. 2 Many are saying of my soul, “There is no deliverance for him in God.” Selah. 3 But You, O Lord, are a shield about me, My glory, and the One who lifts my head. 4 I was crying to the Lord with my voice, And He answered me from His holy mountain. Selah. 5 I lay down and slept; I awoke, for the Lord sustains me.
When any person chooses light over darkness, right over wrong, God's way over our fleshly desires there likely to be immediate challenge. Choosing life lived before the Lord doesn't mean things get easier, on the contrary it can seem that we are given more and more to contend with. Why? There is an adversary, the destroyer and father of lies who accuses us day and night before the Father. The evil one is always after us and is consumed with the pursuit of our death.
Satan exists and he wants nothing more than to tear us down, remind us of how faulted we are, convince us that we are unworthy of the forgiveness and long suffering grace God offers us continually and he is especially ravenous for the fall of true believers. There were so many challenges that arose for us in this pursuit, at one point it seemed like obstacles were raining down. I don't feel inclined to list them out but I will say this, I have learned a lot.
Romans 8;31 What then shall we say to these things? If God is for us, who is against us? 32 He who did not spare His own Son, but delivered Him over for us all, how will He not also with Him freely give us all things? 33 Who will bring a charge against God’s elect? God is the one who justifies; 34 who is the one who condemns? Christ Jesus is He who died, yes, rather who was raised, who is at the right hand of God, who also intercedes for us. 35 Who will separate us from the love of Christ? Will tribulation, or distress, or persecution, or famine, or nakedness, or peril, or sword? 36 Just as it is written, “For Your sake we are being put to death all day long; We were considered as sheep to be slaughtered.” 37 But in all these things we overwhelmingly conquer through Him who loved us. 38 For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, 39 nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
I have learned how easy it can become to want to give up and how difficult it is to keep going even when you feel completely drained. I praise God because He has not left us without a helper and the Holy Spirit is what kept me going in this venture. At a point I wanted to cry and despair he reminded me to pray and sing to God. I will never forget the song I sang in my kitchen and how it felt to offer up something I will never be able to recreate or share with anyone else...an olah offering "completely burnt" before the Lord! Then there was a point of failure, utter and complete where I messed up big time. I realized it, tried to correct it, asked forgiveness and prayed and prayed.
I thought I understood before the power of repentance and the capability of the Lord to forgive even the worst transgressions, but the Lord brought me to a place I have never been before.
It can come to the point where we are convinced we are defeated, unworthy of even approaching the Lord in prayer, or that for as far as we may have come...we still are capable of such backsliding and stiffnecked-ness, well there couldn't truly be any capability for holiness, God couldn't actually use us in a realized way, right? These deceptive tactics are not from God and show us nothing of His nature.
Psalm 103; 8 The Lord is compassionate and gracious, Slow to anger and abounding in loving kindness. 9 He will not always strive with us, Nor will He keep His anger forever. 10 He has not dealt with us according to our sins, Nor rewarded us according to our iniquities. 11 For as high as the heavens are above the earth, So great is His loving kindness toward those who fear Him. 12 As far as the east is from the west, So far has He removed our transgressions from us. 13 Just as a father has compassion on his children, So the Lord has compassion on those who fear Him.
The Lord will give us the strength we need to keep going when we want to stop if where we are headed is somewhere He is taking us. The Lord will provide us the inspiration and motivation we need to produce a good work if He is the one establishing it. The Lord will reveal to us things we could never have seen, would never have noticed, did not understand at the first if our eyes are fixed on one thing alone...His glory and His approval. My daughter and I spent precious moments together shopping and planning. Mixing, measuring, conversing and fellow-shipping. Coming down to the wire I said, "I'm gonna be up late tonight." And "I'm getting up real early tomorrow." Between you and me, most days of the week, if I would let her my dear one would sleep in till noon. But her immediate responses (and she hesitant-less-ly followed through) were "I'll stay up with you." And "I'll come out here and keep you company." There were a lot of things she could do to help and many things she allowed me to do by playing with and caring for her siblings (Which she is always doing for our household). My husband supported us from the start, encouraging us with ideas and providing the start up money and making way for the commitment of time. He made sure everyone was happy, content and fed while I organized as best as I could. It was a team effort and my family's donation to Care Net was the time they offered freely without complaining, knowing it was for a great cause.
Colossians 3; 23 Whatever you do, do your work heartily, as for the Lord rather than for men, 24 knowing that from the Lord you will receive the reward of the inheritance. It is the Lord Christ whom you serve.
The Bake sale was scheduled to end close enough to sundown so that our family could make it home and be able to fall into the Sabbath rest for the week, so on top of everything else the Lord made the way for the floors to be clean, the table to be set and dinner to be prepared and ready to serve. I didn't have to worry about making the Challah bread in time, that was definitely covered.
The Bake Sale for Babies went well, we had customers throughout the day. Many of which were faithful friends. Everything looked nice and I hope tasted great too. We had fun in the gym shooting hoops in between sales. We expected a lot more traffic than we had. I made a lot more than was needed but we was able to bless some friends and others in need with the left overs. It is hard to know what could have been done to make it more successful. As soon as we had everything packed up we set out to sell some of the 1/3 of the items we made that remained. The destroyer immediately attacked and tried to convince my spirit and mind that it was a failure and disappointment, that not nearly the expected amount of people showed up and that I had highly underwhelmed everyone involved. This is what I was battling when we arrived. By the time the children and I got home my husband was sleeping but my olive shoots and I washed up and lit the Sabbath lights to sanctify the time and began our prayers.
Psalm 128; 1 How blessed is everyone who fears the Lord, Who walks in His ways.2 When you shall eat of the fruit of your hands, You will be happy and it will be well with you.3 Your wife shall be like a fruitful vine Within your house, Your children like olive plants Around your table. 4 Behold, for thus shall the man be blessed Who fears the Lord.5 The Lord bless you from Zion, And may you see the prosperity of Jerusalem all the days of your life. 6 Indeed, may you see your children’s children. Peace be upon Israel!
In the Light of Yeshua I breathed in deeply for the first time in a week, I relaxed.
I was quiet, calm and in that moment the Lord spoke to my heart. He asked me what I would do if my children would have done what we all tried to do for this bake sale...for me, and offered it before me. Just say they utterly failed, what would I (a frail and faulted human being) do? What would I respond like to them? Would I spit on their offering or be filled with disdain and disappointment? Or would I look at the heart behind it and treasure the gesture no matter what the outcome? How much more so with God. He would never reject something given from the heart. The Lord's capability to see the good and to weave wondrous into the everyday experience is extensive and far reaching, more than we can comprehend.
I have never been emptied when coming to the Sabbath Table spread in His Name and this night was no exception. A wave of happiness and absolute joy washed over me and the whole spirit within the walls of the household changed in an instant. The children were so sleepy but we blessed and smiled and laughed a while, then headed into bed. It was a matter of moments before they all were out. You can see the pictures I took in the galleries below. Happy tears streamed down my face as I thought about them softly breathing. Still broken hearted for the babies who have never had the chance, but in this moment I surrendered all those sorrows and the lack of answers, I gave all the "why?" to God and asked Him to show us the How...
How do we serve you sincerely?
How do we make You foremost in our lives and hearts?
How can we serve others the way Yeshua showed us?
How can we prepare for the difficult times ahead?
How can we surpass survival and LIVE shining in the darkness?
How can we remember to make our reason for everything be:
"Because I am a servant of the Most High God, Maker of heaven and earth. He gave the very best part of Himself for me, and that is why I live...to strive to be more like him."
This is the picture I will never forget, that I will take with me and carry within me until I return to the dust: The love a person misses out on when void of children or even worse, when void of a relationship with the Heavenly Father...which our family lives and relationships are meant to be shadows of.
Matthew 6; 8 ...for your Father knows what you need before you ask Him. 9 “Pray, then, in this way: ‘Our Father who is in heaven, Hallowed be Your name. 10 ‘Your kingdom come. Your will be done, On earth as it is in heaven. 11 ‘Give us this day our daily bread. 12 ‘And forgive us our debts, as we also have forgiven our debtors. 13 ‘And do not lead us into temptation, but deliver us from evil. [For Yours is the kingdom and the power and the glory forever. Amen.’]
The best thing I can think of to do at this point is thank you's: Thank you God for giving us a heart to know what is right and wrong and to desire to serve you. Thank you Yeshua for making the ultimate sacrifice and choosing to go to death so that we might learn to live for you. Thank you Care Net for giving us the inspiration to hope, to pray for something wonderful. Thank you for working so hard to be essential in miracle making. We know it may not be a huge donation but we pray it will be a tiny thread in what you all are fostering. Life! Thank you Pastor Conrad, Doncella, the kind man who helped us set up the tables and everyone who shares openly and willingly the space at the United Methodist Church. We are so thankful for our relationship with you and pray for it to grow. Thank you Randy and Laura for all the blessings and gifts of time you have given us, we are so thankful for you in our lives. Thank you Winnie, Margaret and Lisa for your delicious donations. Thank you to our dear bible study sisters for the money and food donations, we treasure our time with you all. Thank you to the Sanchez family, Kreie family, Mazac Family and Tibesar family for your donations. Thank you Candace for coming early to help, thank you Kelly and family for your time and all your help and work, thank you for everything you have done for us our water in years of drought! Thank you to CrossFit Cochise for supporting and joining our efforts and for the donations. Thank you to all my husband's customers and the veggie stand customers who donated whom I ask grace of for not writing down your names. Thank you Eric at the Herald and Jeannie and the Spark. Thank you Bradley for all you endure, surpass and facilitate. Thank you for your forgiveness and support. Thank you for loving me enough to stand by me and give me children to love.
Thank you Adele for your donation, I hope and pray this will bless Care Net.
Thank you Kayalynn Eloria for your heart, endurance and for keeping me going. I could never do this without you my gift from Yah.
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Bake Sale For Babies Testimony- Written by Kayalynn Eloria Fiddes
Kayalynn reading: "The Lord is my shepherd I shall not fear." I tiptoed out of the school room and peeked in Mal's room, "Asleep." Abba's asleep too! I peek in the kitchen and she (my Imma) had a curious face. It was the National Day of prayer.
She said, "Let's go! In the car." Imma said, "Today we will go to the UMC or (United Methodist Church.) At the UMC we talked about how mothers abort their babies. "Heartbreaking, isn't it Victoria?" I turned to an empty seat.
I ask Imma, "What, what really is abortion?" She explained it to me. There were tears in my eyes the rest of that day. She suggested "Lets do a bake sale for Care Net!" I agreed. As we baked time went by fast. We made cookies and muffins and lots of bread. God greatly blessed it very much, just as I prayed it would turn out good. We also sold veggies and gave the bake sale cards. We also went to Costco. Hmmm....after we tasted a sample of a brownie...we bought it too! It was very fun. After we made lots of things we knew it would turn out good. That night I had bake sale dreams!
Today is the bake sale and its at the basketball gym! First Victoria arrived. "Lets shoot some baskets." she said, "Sure!" After that Abba and I went up the road and held up a sign and then we ate chocolate cookies. Then Victoria and I also held up a sign. When we got back I saw two Care Net workers they said, "This was a good idea, thank you. You have a big heart." After they left I thought, "Could I have a big heart? Could even one baby saved by the power of God mean I have a big heart?" But...its time to go! After we cleaned up we got in the car...while Abba was stuck in a conversation. In the car I thought about the day.
I learned always to know God is in everything, never doubt God. The Torah is our strength, young people can't take something so heart breaking. Unbelievable things are happening. Babies dying and also fifty people were killed in churches all over Nigeria! Also on June 30, 3 Israeli boys were kidnapped and murdered. Although it is terrible, Yeshua has a a special plan for it for he is our savior.
I wrote a letter to some people I knew, I now thank all who donated: The Sanchez, Kreie, Mazac, Tibesar, Struse and Fiddes families. Our bible study sisters, the Sawvel family for all they did to help and for all others who helped and donated.
A poem by Kayalynn: Lord help me speak....
Lord hear me, Lord see me, watch me Lord
put the words you want in my mouth,
for am I not just a slave of the God Almighty?
Now come with me as I approach,
the woman standing between life and murderer,
faithfulness and adultery,
with their baby, the opportunity to have more generations,
for the world to see more light!
I approach her saying, "O woman, has God not said, "Be fruitful and multiply, fill the land."
As for you, in your sadness and distress
choose life for in your womb is the future!
As I live, I have given my life to GOD therefore, precious children, children who have not even been able to see, hear, or listen to all GOD's wonderful nature; have been passed through the fire of Moloch I now pray in the name of YESHUAH:
My LORD and My KING, FATHER My FATHER My Merciful FATHER who Acts Mercifully have Mercy upon Us; for even us, America A Nation, Who fondly Worshiped GOD have now deceived women To Let their children die; die in Idolatry.
I NOW PRAY YOU BE WITH THEM...........
Words: Imma=Mother Abba=Father Yeshua=Jesus Torah=Truth