Prayers for Passion: When God Doesn't Answer- Kelli Cupstid
I want to share something that the Lord has been teaching me. I believe it’s for more than just me. A couple weeks ago at Home Group I requested prayer for a passion for Jesus and an excitement for Him because I hadn’t had that for some time. As the week went by and we were back at Home Group I still didn’t have a passion for Jesus and I was sad inside. I heard from multiple people in Home Group, through text messages and spending time together, that people were praying that same prayer. So many of us desire a passion and excitement for Jesus and many times we can’t seem to get it. When we don’t have a passion for Jesus, how do we continue walking with Him with steadfastness, sturdiness, absoluteness and solidity about us?
The LORD doesn’t answer our passion prayer on purpose sometimes. But why? Isn’t that His will for us… to have a burning passion in our hearts for Him and Him alone? His Word tells us to ask and if it is His will then that prayer is answered right? He tells us that in 1 John 5:14-15
“And this is the confidence that we have toward Him, that if we ask anything according to His will He hears us. And if we know that He hears us in whatever we ask, we know that we have the requests that we have asked of Him.”
So then why would He not answer our prayer to have a passion for Him?
This is what the LORD has been teaching me over the past 6 months. (Yes, it has taken 6 months for me to really BEGIN to understand it.)
I rely too much on emotions and feelings to carry me through, rather than Jesus alone and His promises. Most of us do this. We start to get super discouraged when we don’t have that burning desire/passion/excitement/joy/ in us. We start to doubt our salvation sometimes because we lose a certain feeling or emotion. Sometimes we get to a point where we pretty much don’t care. When we pray for a passion for Jesus our heart is really praying for things to feel easier and come more naturally. Passion is defined as an intense or overpowering emotion, intense enthusiasm, and excitement. Having a passion for God is a great thing!
Only a faithful passion that is centered on the person and work of Jesus will last though.
We rely on passion to produce more faith in us. But faith produces passion. Passion does not produce faith.
One night I woke up terrified, literally trembling with fear around 2-3 o’clock in the morning. My husband was in bed next to me but that did not comfort me for some reason. I prayed for God’s peace for a couple hours. I could not fall asleep. I was seriously begging God for His peace and asking Him why I couldn’t FEEL His peace. I was repenting of sin thinking maybe something is separating me from Him and that was why I couldn’t feel His peace. I started letting Him know my requests like Philippians 4 says to do and still nothing. This night happened to happen many more times within a months time span.
One night in particular something changed.
I realized I was begging God for a feeling.. I wanted to feel peace. God was calling me to trust in the PRINCE OF PEACE and Who He is. I was not trusting in Him or in His promises. I was not trusting in what He said. I was putting my trust and hope into a feeling and emotion. Once I felt it I figured I could fall asleep. In that moment I was not trusting in His Word that tells me He is with me (Matt 28:20) and He is mighty (Psalm 147:5) and all things are made by Him and through Him and for Him (Col 1:16) and He is my shield in time of trouble (Psalm 18:30) and that He gave me authority to tread over serpents and scorpions and over ALL power of the enemy and nothing can hurt me (Luke 10:17.)
God is not a feeling.
Yes, He gifts us with feeling His presence at times but He is much greater than a feeling or emotion. We have to learn to rely on Him and His Word. We must learn to believe His promises when everything around us seems to be opposite of what He has said. We have to train our minds and our thoughts to become a continual dialogue with Him. We have to train our minds to dwell on His promises and all that He has said. We have to “renew our minds to be transformed.”(Romans 12:2) We have to meditate on the truths of Gods Word.
The Bible talks about the mind just as much as it talks about the heart. Christ alone has the power to change our hearts. We have the choice to submit to the work of the Spirit to transform our minds. We have the choice to entertain thoughts or not. And the mind affects the heart, just as the heart affects the mind.
So when everything around us is troubling and everything going on inside of us is troubling we can still stand in confidence because The Word of God proves true (Psalm 18:30.) We no longer have to sit back and wait for something to spark inside of us but we can continue to walk forward with God because of who He is and what He says. His Word says that
“He has granted to us His precious and very great promises, so that through them you may become partakers of the divine nature…”(2 Peter 1:4)
He just told us that we become more like Him through His promises! We don’t become like Him through passion or excitement but through His promises.
“For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of soul and of spirit, of joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of the heart.” Hebrews 4:12
His Word applies to us spiritually [soul and spirit], physically [joint and marrow], mentally and emotionally [thoughts], and our [heart]. The Word of God applies to our whole entire being. Let us cling to His promises with all our might!
I pray in Jesus’ Name by the power of the Holy Spirit to help us grow in the knowledge of God’s love for us; for our faith to be strengthened and for Jesus to help our unbelief. And I pray that He will help us read, understand, and believe His Word.
In Jesus Name,