The Civil War
April 12, 1864
My name is Penelope Hope Hazier. I am 17 years old. The civil war has been going for awhile and The war began when the Confederates bombarded Union soldiers at Fort Sumter, South Carolina on April 12, 1861, this very day. I'm with my mom and dad in my house scared to death. My mom's name is Rosaline Claire Hazier and my dad's name is Babwa Michael Hazier. I am the only child in the house hold. We are on the Union's side. We dislike the south and what they have done to this country. I currently live in Indiana in a small town called Dillsboro.
It is nothing special, but its home. My best friend is Louise. She has been there every step of the way. Especially today, I've been scared for what is happening.
April 13, 1864
I'm sorry I didn't say much yesterday. I really didn't know what to say with the war going on. I've been thinking about joining the war. Now I know that sounds crazy, but I would be helping the country. I am planning to talk to my family soon tonight about what I'm thinking about. I know they won't probably won't let me go, but I would hope they understand I am helping the country, the whole north. This is how dinner went:
Dad: Are you Okay? You look worried.
Mom: Tell me dear, what are you thinking about?
Me: I am fine father, I just wanted to tell you about how I felt about the civil war. I want to join in to the civil war army. Now I know what you are thinking, but I would be helping the whole north. I want to do this, this is what I want.
Mom: Why would you think such a thing, you would get hurt. You are a lady you don't fight. Ladies aren't allowed to fight in wars anyway. You don't know how much danger is out on that battle field.
Dad: Now, Penelope, I see where your coming from this, but your mom is right. It is not safe.
Me: I know, I know, but can you trust me please. At least just think about it.
Mom and Dad: We will think about it.
Dinner went better than what I expected. I wonder how the war is planning right now. I want to help to. I want to see the fresh air and fight for our country. I want to be like the men and fight for what they believe in.
April 14, 1864
Mom, Dad, and I haven't talked about the discussion we had a dinner last night. It felt like they ignored the whole subject about me going to war. I have thought last night when laying in bed looking out the window. I told myself if mom and dad didn't let me then I'll have to go anyway. Of course ill need to make me look like a man, but I'll mostly hide my face.
It is 2.am and I'm planning on making a run for it. My mom and dad are asleep and they are heavy sleepers. I took a bag out of my closet and piled in warm clothes and a couple of supplies. I tiptoed in the kitchen to get some food. I packed some containers for water and food to eat. I packed a some cow meat so I can have protein. I will find a way to make a fire and cook my food. I started for the door, and I was so close until the floor squeaked. I froze in silence; no one was coming. I kept going opening the door and finally got passed it. I darted when I hit the grass. I ran as fast as I could. I was planning on traveling a couple days to reach South Carolina. I knew it was a hard thing to do, but it is my goal.
I think the only reason why I want to help out is because my Boyfriend, Caleb, went to join the war. He has been there for a year now and I've had no contact with him. I feel as if I should go to the war. I mean I really don't want to, it is just I feel like I should. Anyway, I am in the woods with a fire cooking the cow meat I brought. It is so quiet here, and I miss everyone right now. Here is a letter to Caleb:
I miss you so much and I haven't talked to you in a while. It has been at least a couple weeks since I've seen your face. I miss how we used to spend a lot of time together and then you vanish and don't contact me. The military probably doesn't have good wifi and service down where your at. I wish I could see you again. I hope soon we see each other again and life to become normal again. I ran away from home to join the Civil War. I want to have a chance to fight for my country just like you are. I have been lonely in school, I miss seeing you in class and talking to you. I loved the way we did stupid things together and had a lot in common. Anyway, back to the war thing, I'm traveling to South Carolina to fight in the Civil War. I'm lonely in the woods trying to find a way out of this mess.
I barely know where I'm at, and after I'm done making dinner I will travel even farther to make it closer to South Carolina. i just checked, right now I'm on the border line of Kentucky. I am so scared right now. Well I love you and miss you so much! Hope to see you soon!