Story of Me

By: Leo Abundez

I was fortunate to live under such a responsible aunt, but the way my life was coursed made me feel like I didn't have a mother or father. Developing a sense of self responsibility and reliability were two key points would get me through high school. I didn't ask to live this life, but it is what destiny had for me and thanks to this psychology class, I am able to express psychologically, how my life was. There are some points of negativity and positive points in my life. The most important points of my life are the ones I chose to share in this presentation.

The collection I have made in this presentation is to outline key points in my life that have affected me most. I chose these points in the manner that I don't mind sharing them. I hope these points clearly express my life psychologically and personally to the listener. Since I have many years to come, I know there is so much in life I have yet to experience. I made the collection of media to have a motivational or inspirational meaning to the listener.

For my first video,  I meant this type of problem towards my mother, who was diagnosed with bipolar disorder when she was a teenager. This affected me in the sense that living without her made me feel empty and without the sense of "motherly love" that everyone else had. It changed my life completely in who I was in terms of personality, but in the long run, it was the best for me and my brother.

"Good friends are like stars, you don't always see them but you know they're always there"

I displayed this quote to explain the change in social nature from Sachse, Texas to Highland Park, Texas. I had really close friends before I moved out of Sachse in the 3rd grade and they were always nice and we cherished nostalgic childhood memories. When I moved to Highland Park, I realized one major difference living there: The school was not as friendly and open as Sachse was. It was not hard to make friends because I was an open kid who decided to speak with others, but in order for me to get a long, I conformed to the groupthink society. People from outside towns would stereotype Highland Park and call it the "Bubble" which was something true when thinking about it. Deindividuation occurred  a lot in people and students weren't really being themselves. during Middle School, realizing these aspects of Highland Park made me miss Sachse.

This video is about my brother, Abel Castorena. He was an influence to me and is my biggest idol. When I was mildly bullied and discriminated in Highland Park , Abel guided me through positive reinforcement. My brother decided to join the Army in 2010. Initially wanting to join the air force, he couldn't because of his vision of how his lens didn't allow him to see a clear picture. One problem that he suffered as well was Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder (ADHD) in which he lacked the attention span that most payed attention for a student his age, This Neurodevelopmental disorder restricted him to go to the Airforce and almost didn't allow him to go to the army. Thankful that he went anyways, I was left empty for the past four years without the love of a brother and him being in Afghanistan or Alaska. Shameful to think so, I would have suicidal thoughts and would gesture jokingly as well to my friends because of how much I was angered by people. Without him, I couldn't bear this school and the people in it.

I didn't meet my father for 5 years until 2008. When I finally meet him, I had mixed feelings about seeing him, but one thing for sure, was that I had mixed feelings about seeing him. It was hard to realize how what he looked like because I haven't seen him for so many years.  My perception of him before I met him was definitely different than what was expected. After all years of not seeing him, he had two daughters, one was 4, and one was 3. Seeing my father for the first time in 5 years was one of the most emotional moments in my life.

It's like going to the gym everyday. It really is. I work hard on my craft, I sweat a little bit, I run a little bit, I might sprain an ankle every now and them, but it's all good and the more you do it, the more in shape you are and it's like a machine. - Nia Long

In January 2013, I sprained my ankle riding a long board (longer version of a skateboard). Somewhat cripple for a month and a half, I had to crutch through the hallways without trying to fall. I would think about how annoying it was to crutch around during schools. Then I came into realization as to how much of a mistake it was to complain about being on crutches because there are people with diabilities that undergo these everyday. Thinking about this experience made me realize how thankful I am to have what I have and humble myself from this experience.

My Aunt whom I have lived with for twelve years always inspired me, and that is what this video meant to symbolize for me and my aunt. She was always telling me that I could get where I want to as long as I have the willingness to do it. She told me to learn from my mistakes because repeating them gets me nowhere.  Through plasticity, I can be able to mature and realize what she says is beneficial. Growing up with a helpful and supportive aunt guided me to become a more aware and respectful student.

In this photo, there are two people arguing.  Through my life, I've argued with my aunt several times, but arguing with my friend not too long, made me realized I deindiviuated myself from who I really was. He made me realize that the culture of Highland Park strongly encouraged respect for a social standard and that I felt incompetent or insecure.Without the talk that he gave me, I would have been someone I'm not and that conformity was well within my realm.

In terms of operant conditioning, my aunt taught me to say "yes ma'am" or  "no ma'am" and how to do things the right way. Through Operant conitioning, I learned how to have these conditions into operant behavior because they would eventually turn into verbal or muscle memory.  Sometimes she would give me an unconditioned stimulus unto which I would give and unconditioned response but eventually, the response would turn conditionally and that is how I would be taught by my aunt. She also gave me negative reinforcement when I was younger telling me to write "I will not talk in class unless told to" 100 times for everytime I was in trouble. Though I thought these punishments were uneccessary, they were valuable in the long run.  

Conclusion

The way in which my life was shaped was for a purpose, and I was thankful to have the experiences I had so I could be where I am today. Through psychology, I realized that most of my life is made through psychological experiences. As my life has shaped through these experiences, I have learned that they make a great impact through a psychological standpoint, under which most people don't know is how we live.  

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