Go ahead, Judge me. Everyone else does

They tried to kill me and somehow they won. The voices in my head and the ones outside beat me down. They all told me I was a loser, that I wasn't good enough and it took awhile but eventually I began to see they were right. The tears I cry fall down my cheeks like acid. I feel like every mistake I make is proof I'm not worthy of the few true friends I do have. My life is like a test at school, everyone around me is getting A's and I'm failing badly. I'm never hungry anymore so I don't eat, the smell of food makes me feel like I'm going to throw up and eventually I do throw up because I feel it's the way out. So look at my scars, look at my tears. Just go ahead and judge me, everyone else does. One of these days I'll be gone and people will wonder where I went. They'll ask around and figure out I'm never coming back. I guess everyone will miss me when it's too late, but until then, I have to suffer through all this pain. Pain I probably deserve.

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2 years ago
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@BrokenAngel OMG i'm so sorry! If u need anyone to talk to, message me, chances are i can give u some good advice that will help u!

2 years ago
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@marthak I'll keep that in mind, thanks i guess

2 years ago
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I think...your amazing :) I think that your your self in everyway and people should back the hell off bc your beautiful inside and out. Never let anyone put uou down. Ill be here when you need me most and when you don ill still be here. :) DONT GIVE UP HOPE! H.O.P.E=Hold on pain ends!

2 years ago
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@DeathPrincess thanks! I'm glad to see that i'm accepted on here

2 years ago
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@BrokenAngel Of course you are :) we love everyone whos themselves :)

2 years ago
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@DeathPrincess Good to know :D

2 years ago
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2 years ago
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I know how you feel.. maybe not exactly how you feel and I may not know everything you're going through but I went through something similar. You're very strong and although you may have given in to the temptation of "a way out" a few times, that shows just how strong you truly are. I've contemplated suicide too many times to count and I've cut myself maybe a little too much. But I'm almost 11 months clean now, and if I can do it, so can you. Don't listen to what other people say, because you know what? Fuck them. They don't know what real pain feels like and just remember... Karma's a bitch. They'll get what's coming to them.

2 years ago
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@AcidReignn thanks!

a year ago
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I love what @AcidReignn said (aside from the cursing) because it is COMPLETELY true, @BrokenAngel. In life you need someone to fall back on. And if you don't have that someone, you have me. So if I follow you, I hope you can follow me back so that we can chat sometime.