Eliezar's change in faith
Eliezar's Change in faith
- I was almost 13 and deeply observant. During the day I studied the Talmud, and by night I would run to the synagogue to weep over the destruction of the Temple.
Eliezar is a very passionate boy who studies the Talmud everyday and goes to the Temple at night. When he goes to the Temple, Elie weeps over the the wrecking of the old building and crys when he prays. Eliezar is very passionate in his faith of God.
- "Never shall I forget those moments which murdered my god and my soul and turned my dreams to dust..."
After entering the concentration camp for the first time, Eliezar is horrified. He is seeing so many inhuman acts happening all at once such as the children being thrown into crematoriums and sick people being shot down execution style. Eliezar feels as if this is the end of God and his life
- I did not deny God's existence, but I doubted his absolute justice.
Eliezar still believes that God was present during the horror of the camp. However, Elie is doubtful of his act of ending the prisoners torturous time at the concentration camp.
- I felt myself to be stronger than the Almighty, to whom my life had been tied for so long. I stood amid that praying congregation, observing it like a stranger.
As the prisoners are praying, Eliezar doesn't join in.Eliezar feels as if he is better than God for the fact that he survived this horrible experience that God "put upon" him. Even though God and religion has been a must in his life, Eliezar doesn't pray because he questions if it actually does anything.
- "Yes, man is very strong, greater than God. When You were deceived by Adam and Eve, You drove them out of Paradise. When Noah's generation displeased You, You brought down the Flood… But these men here, whom You have betrayed, whom You have allowed to be tortured, butchered, gassed, burned, what do they do? They pray before You! They praise your name!" Eliezar is outraged by the people praying to God who deceived them. He goes on explaining how Adam and Eve and Noah got punished for doing intolerable acts but is in shock that the people God's punishing still pray to him as if he's their savior
- “I did not fast. First of all, to please my father who had forbidden me to do so. And then, there was no longer any reason for me to fast. I no longer accepted God’s silence. As I swallowed my ration of soup, I turned that act into a symbol of rebellion, or protest against Him.” (pg. 69)
Eliezar is rebelling against the religious fast because he felt as if there was nothing to fast over anymore. He felt that since God is silent when he prays to him, he's not going to sacrifice his rations of food to a lost cause.
- Where is God's mercy? Where's God? How can I believe, how can anyone believe in this God of Mercy?"
Eliezar is questioning whether God is actually here. He doesn't see God's mercy sent to him and the prisoners for the fact that everyday is worse than the next. Elie is doubting if God is actually there since he hasn't did anything to help the prisoners.
- “For the first time, I felt anger rising within me. Why should I sanctify His name? The Almighty, the eternal and terrible Master of the Universe, chose to be silent. What was there to thank Him for?” (pg. 33)
Eliezar is angry that God hasn't chose to do anything about the holocaust. Eliezar doesn't want to pray to God. He feels as if God doesn't deserve to be praised when he is allowing thousands to be killed everyday.
- And, in spite of myself, a prayer rose in my heart, to that God in whom I no longer believed.
Eliezar still has a small part of him that believes in God's capabilities of granting him mercy. Even through his moments of hatred toward his almighty, Elie still prays to a God he no longer believes