Maddie Williams, D Block, November 25th, 2013
Reflecting back on my Stanislavski monologue, I believe that I did a really good job. Going through the ideas that Stanislavski taught actors to use was very helful, excepting the emotional memory one. Focusing on the objectives of my character, the lady in red from for colored girls who have considered suicide/ when the rainbow is enuf, was helpful in understanding the meaning of my monologue beyond just what the words read. I also liked the idea of beating my monologue when the objective changes. It was difficult for me because I didn't think that my character had many objective changes (at first, I didn't quite know what her objective really was, it was hard to focus in). I also, in all honesty, didn't want to focus on the objectives because I was struggling with understanding the monologue in the first place. However, in reading the choreopoem-monologue for just the words and focusing on the lines themselves was helpful in the beating up, and therefore my comprehension of Stanislavski's theory.
The reason that I don't like Stanislavski's theory is because of the emotional memory piece. Whereas finding an emotional memory for a happier piece might have been helpful, the piece that I picked was really heavy and it was really hard for me. I really couldn't use emotional memory of pain and anger because it was too raw and it scared me and freaked me out and made me panicky. In watching my video, I am glad to see that this strong internal wasn't too visible to the audience. I also believe that I did a good job in showing my objectives through my actions, which I noticed in watching my video.
All in all, I believe that the Stanislavksi method was helpful to me in preparing for my monologue, but I would not ever, ever choose it as a theatre practice that I would use or teach.