My Heart In Words

I know what it feels like to have an empty soul. It is worse than a broken heart. Knowing what once was so full and so vibrant has been carved out by a heartache more painful than death. It's the kind of life changing event that makes you mourn the death of the heart that once resided in your chest before your bones were smashed in. The most depressing funeral is the one where you are staring at yourself in the coffin and I promise you I am grateful everyday for my life but it is hard to laugh without feeling phony for wearing an open mouthed smile with a cracked and broken soul. Every morning I pray for the girl who still believes in love to take over my body but every evening my prayers go unanswered and I am sorry that my poems are always depressing but I have lost the ability to feel anything else to its full capacity.